Well Christmas is over and Santa was very good to us this year. The weekend before Christmas we spent it celebrating with my husbands brothers and sisters in Logan along with his parents and his Aunt. Then on Monday the 22 my daughter had a dance recital. She loved it and loves dance. Yesterday my in-laws came over at night we had dinner and opened more presents. I hope everyone reading this had a very merry Christmas and will have a Happy New Year, may god keep you and yours safe in the year to come!

I didn't realize how much sacrifice and running around it took to have older kids. With sports and school activities plus church stuff. I guess you really can tell if you love your kids or anyone for that matter, if you are willing to sacrifice things for them. When we were down in California for Thanksgiving my sister and her family, my mom and dad, plus our family went to Disneyland. When my husband took the boys on some rides. The rest of us took the girls to see tinkerbell and her friends. For how long the line was I was expecting something spectacular. But there wasn't so after that my sister and I took our oldest girls on Space Mountain. Which was a treat for the moms. That is my absolute favorite roller coaster at Disneyland. At the end of the ride they take our picture and if it didn't cost an arm and a leg that would of been a picture worth keeping. My sisters daughter looked like she was scared to death my daughter had her head down my sister was smiling and it looked as if the speed was pulling the skin on my face back. Oh the memories we will have. I love spending time with all of my family. I am hoping they all can come to Utah next November for Thanksgiving and for when my son gets the priesthood. Well I need to go fix dinner for my family.

I'm back it has been so crazy in my life. Let me fill you in. I will start off with some good news I got a new car sold our van to our neighbors. It is so nice driving a car again, it has been at least 6 or 7 years. We had family pictures taken by my sister in law. We went to California to visit my family for Thanksgiving. It was so nice seeing my brother and sister and their families. I was so surprised how well all the kids got along. It just goes to show that my babies are growing up. We got home on Tuesday my neighbor pick us up and dropped us off at the airport. I can not thank them enough. Early Thursday morning I woke up and decided to go look for something of Robert's couldn't find it so went to ask him if he had it. When I turned on the light I saw two piles of throw up on his floor. I have to admit something throw up and I don't go together so I woke up Rob and asked him to help. He did, and while we were cleaning it up my other son woke up  to go the bathroom. He came into my oldest son's room to ask what we were doing we told him what happened and he went back to bed. We cleaned it up and we all went back to bed. Not more than 2 minutes later someone threw up again. Thought it was the same son but when I woke up I found out it was the other one. So we cleaned that one up and went to bed. It must of been a 24 hour thing because they didn't throw up again and they were both tired but went to school. The next morning I took my youngest son to an orthodontist consultation. The good news is that he probably will not need braces for a year or two and his x-rays doesn't show him having any wisdom teeth. The bad news is that he has an extra front tooth which will need to be pulled. Yesterday the kids had a movie night at church so I was already in my p.j.'s. I had to go inside and get them and then found out my boys couldn't leave until they picked up all the popcorn from their popcorn fight. Next time I write I'll tell you about our trip to Disneyland. The good news is that I didn't lose my family with my niece like I did at Lego Land in California.

Well I am back! What's been happening with my family is that the boys have finished football. They are going to start basketball in January. Last Saturday I went shopping with my neighbor and bought dinners for the next two weeks. Which has worked out so far it's just nice for me to know what I'm going to cook for dinner instead of deciding at dinner time. My daughter is in ballet on Mondays with her best friend. I got my hair cut this morning short because when my hair gets long it feels so heavy. On Thanksgiving Day the family and I are flying to California. I can't wait to see my whole family plus my grandparents. I miss getting together with my family at least once a month. I also had an ultrasound on Tuesday because my sides have been hurting and they said it felt as if my spleen was enlarged. First the doctor thought my mono was back but I haven't had that for two years. I decided to have an ultrasound just to find out what else it might be because what the doctor wanted to do was just give me something to take the pain away. But I want to find out what is really wrong not just the quick fix. My brother in law said I just need to move back to California. My sister told him he just wants me to move back because I am having the same problems he is having. My boys have been going to a chess club on Wednesdays and they are having a good time. I have only have been late picking them up once. Well hopefully I can remember to keep updated on my blog so me sister doesn't have to say it sure has been a long time since you have wrote on your blog.

I need to have some kind of routine on when I update my blog.  Lately I have been thinking a lot  about family. You have your extended and immediate family. I have been thinking a whole lot about my immediate family, since 5 years ago on the 20th of this month my brother died in a car accident leaving my house from just having dinner. I hope my  oldest brother knows how much I love him and how much I wish I lived closer to him and got to see him more. I am so thankful for my sister and I love her too. I'm so thankful we talk very often. When I am not helping with her problems she help me and listens to mine, and for that I am eternally grateful. Now for my mom and dad I am thankful that they raised me in the gospel my whole life. I didn't realize how thankful until after my accident and after I had a husband and kids of my own. I am also so excited that I have been on a diet for 4 weeks and so far I have lost 9 pounds and just have 21 more to go until I am at the weight I was before I started having kids or I can lose 36 more pounds and be the weight I was when I was a senior in high school. The picture I am putting with this blog are my moms parents. I have been thinking a lot about my grandparents.

Hello! I'm writing on my blog once again. You are probable thinking wow she must be really busy but the fact of the matter is I don't know why I haven't written in so long. Arianna and I were working on her spelling yesterday, so early this morning about 5 she came in my room and said " I can spell nintendo and started spelling it. I sent her back to bed and I should of got up to jog but I was too tired. But she came back in around 6 so I decided that I probably should get up and jog. I'm doing this thing where I don't eat sugar and carbohydrates and I have been doing it for 2 and a half weeks and I have already lost 4 pounds. I can tell the difference but when I ask my husband he says yes your getting there. Yesterday I volunteered in Robert's class and that was nice. I saw Nick at recess so I told him when he got home that I was going to run out on the playground and give him a big kiss. Then he told me well why didn't you. So I told him that he would of gotten so mad at me. Yes, Arianna tells me everyday that she loves school. That makes me happy. until next time.

Well my parents are here from CA. for another week. Last week we went bowling and we hiked up to the timp. caves. Everybody in the family went and I was very impressed we all survived. My mom thought MY husband was trying to kill her since he was the only one who has been on the hike before. Today was the first day of school for all three of my kids to be in school all day. So what did I do, after I dropped them off I came home did laundry, mopped the kitchen, and vacuumed, then took a nap. My parents went to visit some friends for lunch. Now I'm just waiting for my kids to come home. I hope this will be a good year for all of my kids at school since it's a new school with new teachers. This year Robert has a man teacher. I'll see if he likes that better. Well tell next time talk or write to you later.

It's hard to believe that summer for the kids is almost over and they go back to school in a couple weeks. The kids and I just stayed home this summer, that was nice for my husband. Today we got are carpets cleaned in the whole house. It looks nice! The other day my son was looking on our calendar and saw that my mom is going to turn 61 on her birthday and he said, "Your mom is not that old I thought that was how old your Grandma was." My oldest is giving me a taste of how he is going to act like when he's a teenager. Yipee, I can't wait. I promised my daughter after her last class of ballet I would get her hair cut. So of course she held me to it. So I got about 6 inches cut off. She likes it but I think when they cut her hair it gave her an attitude. So bring on the teenage years! 

I guess I have been busy because the last time  I wrote on my blog it was the first of July. So let me fill everybody in on what's been happening. On the fourth of July we had a picnic with the family, went swimming at Daniel and Carrie's new house. Then went to watch fireworks at Thanksgiving Point. But before that on my birthday we went to see the movie Hancock which I thought was very good. I give it four stars. Then a week after that Arianna turned 6. She had family over for dinner then friends and family over for cake and ice cream. Then after that we went to Lagoon with most of Rob's family. That was pretty fun it would have been more fun with the whole family. I think I have decided that I need to go to California for awhile in the summer to keep my sanity. My husband drives me crazy and I probably go a little psycho on him also. I guess that's what happens when I live in Utah and the rest of my family lives in California. I thought I would try not going this summer but if it weren't for the fact that my parents are coming to Utah next month for two weeks, I would go crazy. Arianna was playing with a new friend the other day and her new friend asked me what Arianna name was when I told her, Arianna said " But you can call me Carly. " I thought that was the funniest thing ever. Hopefully I will stay more caught up on my blog. 

On Saturday was Arianna's ballet recital, which was very good. They did Alice in Wonderland and she was a lobster. I was very happy for her she did so well. I am always so proud of everything my kids do, I loved them so much. Lately I have been missing my family so much, probably because around this time is when I am usually in California with my kids for a month but with Arianna in dance I can't go this summer. Usually we would celebrate all the summer birthdays in California. Maybe that's why it has been really hard for me this year since my sisters and my birthday is a week apart and we wont be spending it together. Nobody on my side of the family lives in Utah anymore since my brother was killed in a car accident. It's just not fun anymore having birthdays anymore. I just wish I could go on a trip, and not have to worry about anything or anyone.  

Well this morning when the kids woke up I told them before they could go play with friends I wanted to take pictures where Arianna took her ballet pix. There was a waterfall there so who do you think fell in. Nope, Robert but he blamed it on Nickolas. But Nickolas was the one to step in dog crap. I love spending time with my kids. I just wish my husband would see the good times and not just  when I'm on my last nerve with my kids. I  think that is because and I hope because when there playing with other people they are on there best behavior. So when they come home they just need to be themselves. I understand why my husband gets so mad at me for letting my kids  just walk all over me. The only way I know to disipline my kids is to raise my voice and I rather do that than hit my kids. My husband doesn't understand that since it's easier for him to use strength to get his family to listen to him. I get so depressed when I hear or see couples and families  that look so perfect and are so happy.  Then I think to myself that it must be me since my patience level is very low. I also have a tendency to tell you what I'm thinking at that percise moment no matter who you are or where we are. Maybe that's why I live in Utah and my family lives in California, so I wont imbarass them. I probably do a little bit when I tell them my stories.My husband is trying to decide on wether or not to sell or re-finiance our house. I don't want to move for two reasons, the first one because my Dad keeps on telling me that they're going to move to Utah, maybe I'm crazy for believing that especially knowing my Mom and the only pair of pants and jacket she owns are for when she visits us in Utah. Then the second reason is because my brother Mike who passed away has a picture with my boys and my daughter when they were younger. It wasn't the same house but it was the same floor plan. So it's like having one last thing to hold on to. That probably sounds soooo stupid but that's the way I feel. Since when my brother was first married him and his wife lived with us and when they built there first house that my husband built was in the City Center a couple of blocks from us. When we had to move from our house in the City Center I wanted to move to the Ranches. The last dinner my brother had was at my house that reminds me of this house. I know I need to get past that but I'll do it in my own due time. 

Well it has been awhile since I have updated my blog. Yesterday, my husband and boys came home from Wyoming, and we celebrated Nickolas' 9th birthday. It was GREAT! They  woke up early to come home so dealing with Nickolas who didn't have enough sleep . I already had a headache before the party. I am so thankful for my neighbors for barbecuing the meat I supplied. I am so grateful for all of  my friends and family and the support and love they give me. If I didn't have them I think everyone would think I was psycho and not just my husband. I really appreciate it if you do think I'm psycho but I don't know about it. Arianna has already told me that for her birthday in July she wants to go to Chuck E. Cheese, because now they sell birthday cakes. On Monday my daughter and I saw " Kung Fu Panda. " We went to an early movie after lunch and there was  probably about 5 or 6 other people there which was nice. Take care until next time.

Yesterday, we went to our boys baseball game. They are in the play-offs and they win there first game. So I think this means there in the world series, or something like that. The principal of the new school the kids are going to be going to has a son on the team. So I showed Arianna who he was and she said, "He's handsome!" I got a crack out of that. I was talking to my mom yesterday and she told me that everyone is coming over on Sunday. I said what for and she told me it's Father's Day. Surprise!  I hope this blog is letting everyone know what's going on in our life. If you have any questions or concerns call me. Our home phone is off so you'll have to call my cell phone. I can't believe in 6 days he will be 9. Plus in 28 days my daughter will be 6. My birthday will fall in between there also. I hope that my husband has planned a BIG surprise party. I only say that because only 2 times we have done something BIG, all the other times he has worked. I don't think he reads my blog anyways and he's not the surprise party planner type. But that's O.K. I think I have had one surprise party when we have been married, and only his family was invited. Last year I think I was in California. Which reminded me when I was younger and my sister and I celebrated our birthdays together since we were born 2 years and 1 week apart. I love my sister and brothers with all of my heart. I miss not being able to see and talk with them face to face. It hurts me when I hear of them having problems and I'm not closer so I can help them. I hate seeing other people hurting and not be able to help. 

Yesterday we went swimming which was fun because ther weren't a lot of people. My husband hasn't had any jobs so far this week so we've been able to do things I probably wouldn't do with out him here. But he alredy let me know that the first part of next week he has a job in flaming gorge, so he wont be home those nights. Today he took the boys to the batting cages and out to lunch and swimming. For a boys day. So of course my daughter has already asked, "When is mommy and little girls day?" I think it is really important for my husband to do this with his kids. Not just because it's a break sort of for me but kids need the one on one time with there parent. I think my daughter has a date with her dad this weekend. Tonight the boys have there first play-off game for baseball, Go Yankess! Last Saturday my daughter was in a parade with her dance class, for Pony Express Days, they were all dressed in there costumes of Alice in Wonderland for there recital. Her recital is June 28. I took my daughter to the park today and we saw some people we knew there with there kids and kids they watch and they where leaving, to have a picnic,  so I sked my daughter if she was ready to go and one of the ladies said she had extra food if my daughter and I wanted to come with them. So I asked, "Are you hungry? She said "No." Which I didn't think so since we ate before we came to the park. So then we went home. Probably if she was hungry I would of just taken her home anyways, It's hard for me to except offers like that, because what if what they have my child doesn't like or they eat to much. So that's why we eat before or when we come back. I think I need to work on that being the one to except someones help instead of giving the help. My younger son has a birthdayin eight days and he will be 9. He is my hardest but also my one that was born on the same date as my car accident 6 years later. I guess that's one way to keep my mind on other things. I guess in a way I am thankful for the distraction.  

Well yesterday I took the kids to get haircuts I'll try to post the pictures. Arianna just got an inch cut off. But since I took the boys and my husband wasn't home to watch her I decided to get her hair a trim. Like I did Last summer. She still needs it long enough to put in a bun for ballet.  I usually go to California for a month in the summer, but Arianna has dance until the end of July. So I guess I will stay in Utah for the summer. But I think my parents are coming out in August. I am really excited, I love when my parents come to visit, I only wish my sister would come out with her family or if her husband is anything like mine and can't take off work or doesn't want to at least her and her girls. We love the men in our life. How ever much they get on our nerves. My husband got wireless internet yesterday and they put something on our house and of course it was really windy last night and we watched  National Treasure 2, so by the time I went to bed I only got a couple hours of sleep until something was hitting the side of the house. So I read 2 chapters of the 3rd book of the Twilight series. Those books are very interesting. I hope we will have a family vacation this summer. My husband is trying to cut down on expense around the house so we are probably going to turn off our house phone and just use our cell phones. So we have been trying to help our kids memorize our numbers. I think all three of the kids know at least mine by now.  

I love my children and husband with all of my heart. I am very grateful for my extended family. They don't realize how much of an example they are to my sons and husband. I am so thankful for the Lord in my life. I know from personal experience that miracles are real and for that I am eternally grateful. I am so thankful for my parents for bringing me up in the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. With out it I am afraid were I would be today. I am so thankful for the atoning sacrifice of our lord and savior Jesus Christ. I know without a shadow of a doubt that families are for ever and with that knowledge I know I can live with my family for eternity. Even my brother Mike. I testify that the Book of Mormon is the word of God. Every time I read it is confirmed to me. Well tomorrow starts summer vacation. So through this blog might be the only way I will be talking to anyone. I need to work on controlling my anger and working on my patients and yelling.  When I think I am doing better at it I snap and it's usually around my husband who makes me feel worse about myself and that I'm a bad mom and my kids are going to hate me. I don't think kids realize how much crap we put up with, and how much we do love them no matter what they do. 

Well the kids are finally out of school for the summer. I found out yesterday that next year all my kids will be going to a different school next year. Robert will be in 5th grade, Nickolas will be in 4th grade, and Arianna will be in 1st grade. I will put up pictures of them with there teachers from this year. Arianna and Robert both had new teachers which were great. But Nickolas' teacher Mrs. Sorenson is retiring this year. She was a great teacher and really helped Nickolas. I will be eternally grateful to her for the rest of my life. Yesterday Rob and I took the kids to play miniature golfing and to the batting cages. After we had to tell the boys that miniature golfing wasn't like playing baseball and you didn't have to hit the ball so hard, Robert and Nickolas got one hole in one. Then at the batting cages the boys each hit about 25 balls and then it broke so after the guy fixed it I decided to give it a try. Rob told me I would have 25 balls and then a red light would go on and that would be the end of my turn. the guy told us since it broke he put 150 more balls in. to make a long story short I ended up hitting all 150 balls because the light never came on. When I was done Robert said, "You are better than both the girls on our baseball team. My patience is short and I do yell but I do love my kids with all of my heart I would rather yell than hit or beat my kids and believe me I am very tempted at times. But then I just remember the cute things they do or how cute they are or when my husband is home put them in the basement with there Dad say, "I'm done!' shut the door and go watch t.v. in my room.

Well Memorial Day is over and if you don't live in Utah you probably barbecued in something other than rain and hail like we did. Yes, I know it's the end of May and the kids are almost out of school for summer break. The most important part is that we spent it with family. Even though while we were watching Arianna's kindergarten program she had to wake up her grandpa and say, " Grandpa you're missing everything." Oh, kids say the darnedest things. Well if you don't know me you are probable wondering if I mean to say what I write, don't worry I know what I'm typing. If you don't like what I say stop reading this blog. There is one person in my family who says I am self-fish and mean but I don't think he likes me being so honest. This morning it must be the last week of school because I had the hardest time waking up one of my kids and when I went into the room I noticed the clean clothes I had for them to put away were in the closet. It just makes me think of the scripture in the Doctrine in Covenants 24:8, which reads, "Be patient in afflictions, for thou shalt have many;but endure them, for lo, I am with thee, even unto the end of thy days." Or I play the song by Josh Groban, "You raise me up." Well until the next time, talk to you later.

Well I finally started blogging so I hope family and friends can get caught up on all the happenings going on in my life. I'll start by telling about my kids, school is going to end on Friday May 30. So I have a week to prepare myself for having my kids home all day. I went to California for Mother's Day weekend and for a family reunion. The best part was I just went by myself. I had a great time with family I had my best bowling score ever to bad it was on a video game. I told My husband if I ever had to move from the house I live in now I wanted to move to California. Since my Dad alway jokes about moving to Utah to my Mom but I don't get to see my brother's and sister as much as I want to and talk to them as much as I want to. But my life here in Utah hasn't been to bad, Robert does good in school, Nickolas has only had to have stitches once so far, and Arianna has her first ballet recital on June 28.