Well it's been another week and everything is going well. My mom and dad are coming out on Thursday so I'm really excited about that. I love it when they come out since I don't get to see them as often as I would like to. I woke up this morning with a sore throat. So far on my diet that I'm doing I have lost five pounds and I wish I would of lost more but the good news is I'm not gaining more. My husband says if I do it for 1 more week (the diet) and if I don't lose anymore more than I've already lost I could stop if I wanted. But I guess it's good because I'm eating more fruit and now I can sort of monitor what I'm eating. Plus drinking more water. Now we are getting ready for church. I'm wondering do you think every dream comes true? For the last couple of nights I have had a real disturbing dream about myself so I was just wondering. I keeping seeing kids I used to teach in church when they were 2 and in the fall they are going to start kindergarten. They look so much older than the little kids I used to teach. Now I can understand when my parents come and say that my kids look so much different than the last time they saw them. I'll try to write on my blog before my parents come if I remember if not I'll try to write after there gone. So until I write again. Bye.

My oldest came back from camp this afternoon. I asked if he had fun, he said yes but the snow was up to his waist. Plus the three pairs of socks he took were soaking wet. He also said there was a mouse in his cabin that got into his sleeping bag that he picked up with his feet and then got it in his hand and threw it across the room and it died. I also called the place were I applied for the job and the manager told me since 5 other restaurants within a 10 mile radius of the place were I applied just opened up they are having to cut back on the employees hours they already have. But to keep checking back every once and awhile. So I will probably check back when the kids are back in school next year. Since they only have about a month left. Which is good for my  mom and dad since my mom wasn't very excited when I told her I had an interview and might be getting a job. Tonight is my sons pinewood derby for scouts. My daughter came in the house and told me she was freezing. Then her friend came over to see if she could play but I was going to make dinner so I said no, and that was just the end of the world and she told me I only knew the word no. I just love it when your kids think there smarter than you are. Well I better go it's time for my sons scouts.

Well here I go again. Tomorrow my oldest is going on a camp out with his school. It's only for one night and be back on Tuesday. I think it is going to be fun. I saw pictures of where there going from the teacher. Now my daughter was feeling fine yesterday and played with our neighbor all day after we came home from grocery shopping and running around. My middle child was complaining that his leg hurt and he had scratches all over. I asked Why? The answer I got was I was climbing trees. Go figure, no wonder his legs hurt and he had scratches. Tomorrow I go check back with the place I applied for a job. I hope they have good news for me. Keep me in your prayers. I'm sorry I haven't been posting pictures on my blog but my husband did something different with our pictures and I haven't figured it out yet. My husband bought me Twilight the movie yesterday. We all watched it last night. I'm going to a baby shower on Wednesday night. Does anyone have any suggestions on what to give? I usually just give diapers because I'm not really sure of the sex. A boy and a girl can both get diapers. Last week my husband had a few jobs so cross my fingers it's starting to pick up again. Well that's all for now but I'll be back!

Well hello there! I would of wrote sooner today but my daughter throw-up this morning so she stayed home from school. For the last past couple of days she has been complaining of her stomach hurting but she has gone to school and plays after school and eats dinner and has been fine. Except for today I woke her up she asked for a drink of water and then it all came up. So since she threw-up I kept her home from school. But as soon as the boys came home from school she told me I feel so much better. My oldest son came home from school with blood on his the arm of his jacket. I asked what happened and he said that a kid pushed him off of the bar at school. I was all upset asking 20 questions. My son kept saying Yes mom I told the office and was rolling his eyes. Then when my other son heard us talking about it told his brother show me who it was and I'll beat him up. He is all talk and no action. My friend told me of a store that was hiring so yesterday I went to get a job application but they told me they didn't have any left but I could go on line and put in my resume. So since I was in town I decided to look at some more places. They just told me they weren't hiring but I finally went to a place where they were hiring but only dayshifts. I said that's perfect that's what I need. So the manager had me fill out job application there and was talking to me about what I expected from the job and what days and hours I could work. They also told me to come check back at the beginning of next week. So we'll see what happens. I better go and make dinner. So until next time. See Ya.

Well I have decided that my blog is sort of like my journal. This morning I watched the movies I made for my kids and my husband and I never thought I could ever love anyone so unconditionally as I love my mom and dad and brothers and sister. But I do. I have been on a detox for my body so I can loose weight. I have already lost 4 pounds. We went to the temple earlier this week and did some endowments for my husbands dead family. It was nice to see the temple, I don't know how to explain it but when I go to the temple it always makes me feel like everything I've been feeling just goes away. Even though it doesn't it feels that way when I'm in the temple. If only I could stay there all day. I talk to my family in California yesterday and that was nice. Even though I can't see my family every day I am glad for cell phones so I can at least talk to them every day if I want to. I even talked to my brothers new girlfriend. She seems really nice and I even found out her parents live in Utah and friends that live in the same place we do. So hopefully this means that he will come visit. We will see. I'm going to have something to eat before we go to church.

I have  decided instead of making my sister or friends listen to all my problems, I'll just write them down on my blog. I feel better when I write it down. I feel like I have been putting on weight because with my husband not having work and always being home makes me feel so lazy. Plus since I'm home I'm always snacking. So I guess my husband has been sending out his resume but it looks as if Utah is not hiring because all the response he has got back is New York and New Orleans. So now I'm getting a little stressed out. When I talk about it I start really thinking about our situation and look at how bad it is. It's just times like this that I wish I had family that lived in Utah. I wish I could see my family more than I do. It's very different after I got married because my family and extended family would get together all the time. But I guess since everyone lives so far from everybody else it's  more difficult. Well I'm so sorry if this sounds like a pity party. So I will give you information on my kids. My oldest is getting so grown up it seems to me like just the other day we were bringing him home from the hospital after he was born. Now for my next oldest I can remember bringing him home from the hospital not for being born but for having a busted lip for falling off his booster seat. Now for my last and final child, I remember being so glad to come home from the hospital and to have all my kids at home. I am so glad to have them and thank God for them everyday!

Well here I am again! A new day has come, and here I am writing on my blog again. Things are better like my sister told me we all have to go through rough times. I am so glad when I'm happy I don't like to be down and depressed. Saturday I took my boys to get hair cuts and of course my daughter wanted her hair cut so all of my kids got hair cuts. My oldest is changing from a boy to a Man. That's very interesting. We have had the talk from some papers his doctor gave me. I thought my son was going to die and kept asking if I was done so he could watch T.V. That made me sort of happy but I rather him hear it from me than someone else. So if he has questions he'll come to me hopefully. I saw a good movie on Saturday but it was long and my husband even watched it with me. The movie was "Australia" with Nicole Kidman. I really liked it. We had a friend over on Saturday who said he would start me on a diet. I asked him where I should be weight wise and he told me about 115 or 120. So I hope it is helping I go to the gym 3 times a week. I want to get a better eating habit or just start eating more healthy. Well I better go to have F.H.E. So until next  time. 

Well hello strangers! Well let me keep you updated on everything that has been going on with our lives. The boys have been playing basketball since January but it is now coming to an end. Even though the boys were on different teams they loved playing and want to play next year. Which well be better for me because they will be in the same age group and on the same team. But now it is time for baseball and they will be on the same team. But Arianna wants to play soccer this year so we are just waiting for the sign ups. My husband is going to start school in May. I have been such a source of faith for my husband since his work has been slow for the last little while. Just reminding him this is how it usually is this time of the year, and it always picks up. But yesterday I just had a melt down thinking that everything wasn't going to work out like it always does. I hate having undeniable faith and letting the devil work his way in and have me question my faith. I remember the last time this happened it was the fast sunday after my brother was killed in a car accident. I was walking up to bare my testimony, and I started to doubt and question everything I'd ever borne in my testimonies ever before. I want to be able to not go through this anymore because it makes me feel so bad and terrible, and it makes me feel like I'm contradicting myself after making my husband start to believe because of my faith and belief. If anybody reading this has any advice I would love to hear it and gladly except it. I try to be strong for friends and family. But I guess  we all need help sometimes. I just wish I didn't have to have this as one of my trials. I need to go and make dinner for my family. Hopefully I can be more current on my blog. It's easier to write my feelings than talk about them. So until next time.