I need to have some kind of routine on when I update my blog.  Lately I have been thinking a lot  about family. You have your extended and immediate family. I have been thinking a whole lot about my immediate family, since 5 years ago on the 20th of this month my brother died in a car accident leaving my house from just having dinner. I hope my  oldest brother knows how much I love him and how much I wish I lived closer to him and got to see him more. I am so thankful for my sister and I love her too. I'm so thankful we talk very often. When I am not helping with her problems she help me and listens to mine, and for that I am eternally grateful. Now for my mom and dad I am thankful that they raised me in the gospel my whole life. I didn't realize how thankful until after my accident and after I had a husband and kids of my own. I am also so excited that I have been on a diet for 4 weeks and so far I have lost 9 pounds and just have 21 more to go until I am at the weight I was before I started having kids or I can lose 36 more pounds and be the weight I was when I was a senior in high school. The picture I am putting with this blog are my moms parents. I have been thinking a lot about my grandparents.

Hello! I'm writing on my blog once again. You are probable thinking wow she must be really busy but the fact of the matter is I don't know why I haven't written in so long. Arianna and I were working on her spelling yesterday, so early this morning about 5 she came in my room and said " I can spell nintendo and started spelling it. I sent her back to bed and I should of got up to jog but I was too tired. But she came back in around 6 so I decided that I probably should get up and jog. I'm doing this thing where I don't eat sugar and carbohydrates and I have been doing it for 2 and a half weeks and I have already lost 4 pounds. I can tell the difference but when I ask my husband he says yes your getting there. Yesterday I volunteered in Robert's class and that was nice. I saw Nick at recess so I told him when he got home that I was going to run out on the playground and give him a big kiss. Then he told me well why didn't you. So I told him that he would of gotten so mad at me. Yes, Arianna tells me everyday that she loves school. That makes me happy. until next time.

Well my parents are here from CA. for another week. Last week we went bowling and we hiked up to the timp. caves. Everybody in the family went and I was very impressed we all survived. My mom thought MY husband was trying to kill her since he was the only one who has been on the hike before. Today was the first day of school for all three of my kids to be in school all day. So what did I do, after I dropped them off I came home did laundry, mopped the kitchen, and vacuumed, then took a nap. My parents went to visit some friends for lunch. Now I'm just waiting for my kids to come home. I hope this will be a good year for all of my kids at school since it's a new school with new teachers. This year Robert has a man teacher. I'll see if he likes that better. Well tell next time talk or write to you later.

It's hard to believe that summer for the kids is almost over and they go back to school in a couple weeks. The kids and I just stayed home this summer, that was nice for my husband. Today we got are carpets cleaned in the whole house. It looks nice! The other day my son was looking on our calendar and saw that my mom is going to turn 61 on her birthday and he said, "Your mom is not that old I thought that was how old your Grandma was." My oldest is giving me a taste of how he is going to act like when he's a teenager. Yipee, I can't wait. I promised my daughter after her last class of ballet I would get her hair cut. So of course she held me to it. So I got about 6 inches cut off. She likes it but I think when they cut her hair it gave her an attitude. So bring on the teenage years! 

I guess I have been busy because the last time  I wrote on my blog it was the first of July. So let me fill everybody in on what's been happening. On the fourth of July we had a picnic with the family, went swimming at Daniel and Carrie's new house. Then went to watch fireworks at Thanksgiving Point. But before that on my birthday we went to see the movie Hancock which I thought was very good. I give it four stars. Then a week after that Arianna turned 6. She had family over for dinner then friends and family over for cake and ice cream. Then after that we went to Lagoon with most of Rob's family. That was pretty fun it would have been more fun with the whole family. I think I have decided that I need to go to California for awhile in the summer to keep my sanity. My husband drives me crazy and I probably go a little psycho on him also. I guess that's what happens when I live in Utah and the rest of my family lives in California. I thought I would try not going this summer but if it weren't for the fact that my parents are coming to Utah next month for two weeks, I would go crazy. Arianna was playing with a new friend the other day and her new friend asked me what Arianna name was when I told her, Arianna said " But you can call me Carly. " I thought that was the funniest thing ever. Hopefully I will stay more caught up on my blog. 

On Saturday was Arianna's ballet recital, which was very good. They did Alice in Wonderland and she was a lobster. I was very happy for her she did so well. I am always so proud of everything my kids do, I loved them so much. Lately I have been missing my family so much, probably because around this time is when I am usually in California with my kids for a month but with Arianna in dance I can't go this summer. Usually we would celebrate all the summer birthdays in California. Maybe that's why it has been really hard for me this year since my sisters and my birthday is a week apart and we wont be spending it together. Nobody on my side of the family lives in Utah anymore since my brother was killed in a car accident. It's just not fun anymore having birthdays anymore. I just wish I could go on a trip, and not have to worry about anything or anyone.  

Well this morning when the kids woke up I told them before they could go play with friends I wanted to take pictures where Arianna took her ballet pix. There was a waterfall there so who do you think fell in. Nope, Robert but he blamed it on Nickolas. But Nickolas was the one to step in dog crap. I love spending time with my kids. I just wish my husband would see the good times and not just  when I'm on my last nerve with my kids. I  think that is because and I hope because when there playing with other people they are on there best behavior. So when they come home they just need to be themselves. I understand why my husband gets so mad at me for letting my kids  just walk all over me. The only way I know to disipline my kids is to raise my voice and I rather do that than hit my kids. My husband doesn't understand that since it's easier for him to use strength to get his family to listen to him. I get so depressed when I hear or see couples and families  that look so perfect and are so happy.  Then I think to myself that it must be me since my patience level is very low. I also have a tendency to tell you what I'm thinking at that percise moment no matter who you are or where we are. Maybe that's why I live in Utah and my family lives in California, so I wont imbarass them. I probably do a little bit when I tell them my stories.My husband is trying to decide on wether or not to sell or re-finiance our house. I don't want to move for two reasons, the first one because my Dad keeps on telling me that they're going to move to Utah, maybe I'm crazy for believing that especially knowing my Mom and the only pair of pants and jacket she owns are for when she visits us in Utah. Then the second reason is because my brother Mike who passed away has a picture with my boys and my daughter when they were younger. It wasn't the same house but it was the same floor plan. So it's like having one last thing to hold on to. That probably sounds soooo stupid but that's the way I feel. Since when my brother was first married him and his wife lived with us and when they built there first house that my husband built was in the City Center a couple of blocks from us. When we had to move from our house in the City Center I wanted to move to the Ranches. The last dinner my brother had was at my house that reminds me of this house. I know I need to get past that but I'll do it in my own due time.