I know it has been awhile since I've written on my blog but I decided to write since tomorrow is my daughters birthday and on Saturday the kids and I are flying to California to visit my family. I hope it will be fun for the kids as it will be for me. I want to do something that the boys will enjoy. After we come home we will probably have soccer practice for my daughter and football practice for the boys. Then it's back to school in August. I decided to put the kids on the early track which starts at 8:00 in the morning. I think that will be better since they wake up early anyways so they can wake up and get ready for school instead of goofing around like last year. Plus I think it will be better for my oldest, since I'm not sure what time seventh grade starts. Well we will see. I think today our family is going to go on a tour to see our new temple the Oquirrh temple. That should be a fun family activity. Well I probably well write again when I get back from California. I don't know when that will be since we only bought tickets there not for the flight back. So until I write again.

Here we go again with another week. I talked with someone yesterday about all my drama and now that I am not keeping it bottled up any more I have decided to just get over it. I can't change anybody else but myself. I don't want to change the way I am completely all just have to be careful who I get close to and what I share to others. I almost forgot who I should always turn to when things just aren't going the way I expected. Well as for the kids there doing great the baseball game for the boys was cancelled yesterday because it was raining. Which was good in a way since on Friday my oldest sprained his thumb playing teather ball. Well I need to go get ready for church so until next time.

Well today is the first day of May and I'm writing once again. There's not too much going on well there is but if I get into it I will get upset and start to cry. The kids are almost home and I have to be strong for the kids.  But I can say 28 more days of school. I have to be very careful what I write because you never know who reads these. My boys have there first baseball game on Saturday at there old school and they are really excited about that. I think I want to start my daughter in tap dancing classes when we get money if we get money. I hate dandelions  I swear I will pick them and the next day there are 10 or 15 more. I think I'm going to get some stuff that kills them. Until next time talk to you later!

Well I just got home from volunteering at the kids school. I graded a spelling test and kept score while they played Deal or No Deal in teams on some science stuff before a science test. My son asked me to slide on his grounding today. But I told him I have before and he doesn't treat me any differently than he always does. It's funny at school when I'm helping in one sons class he's all lovey dovey but he has the worst attitude at home. I guess these are my trials for this part of my life. It's funny how defensive I get when my kids get put down or talked bad about. I guess if it makes people feel better to think there kids are better than mine and mine are awful, whatever! I know I yell a lot but my kids have been pretty good the last little while and they walked home after there baseball practice yesterday right after. I love my children so much!

Well here I am again. On monday it was the hottest day this week so of course my middle child was out all day and got sunburn on his neck, arms and legs. My youngest wasn't out as long but got sunburn on the neck. But it wouldn't be Utah if it didn't snow and of course that's what it did this morning. My husband had a job in Nevada but it was snowing so everyone came home. But he might work for the same company that has an office in Los Angeles, California for the summer. I have been trying to start a new life with my family in Utah but I want to move back to California to be closer to my family. People are so different in Utah than California. I do have friends in Utah but I miss my family a lot more. I wanted to try to make it on my own with my own family and new friends but I want to be by my family. It's so hard growing up around a lot of family involvement and getting married and there is hardly any. I think I'm just am just being a big boob or a least that's what my husband would tell me that's why I can't talk to him because I would rather just write about it then have my husband make me feel like an idiot. Well I better go and make lunch for the family. Until next time.

Well my parents are gone and I did have a good time with them. My daughters best friend is glad they are gone since she told her she didn't want to play while her grandma was here. My boys like to stay after school and play tether ball so maybe I will look into getting them one or making a home made one. Tonight is my daughters first grade program at her school. My parents and I went to a rehearsal yesterday since they were leaving early this morning. Now I better go to pick up my boys since they are still at school and didn't let anyone know they were staying. Hopefully the next time I write I will have more to say. Next week is my kids spring break.

Well it's been another week and everything is going well. My mom and dad are coming out on Thursday so I'm really excited about that. I love it when they come out since I don't get to see them as often as I would like to. I woke up this morning with a sore throat. So far on my diet that I'm doing I have lost five pounds and I wish I would of lost more but the good news is I'm not gaining more. My husband says if I do it for 1 more week (the diet) and if I don't lose anymore more than I've already lost I could stop if I wanted. But I guess it's good because I'm eating more fruit and now I can sort of monitor what I'm eating. Plus drinking more water. Now we are getting ready for church. I'm wondering do you think every dream comes true? For the last couple of nights I have had a real disturbing dream about myself so I was just wondering. I keeping seeing kids I used to teach in church when they were 2 and in the fall they are going to start kindergarten. They look so much older than the little kids I used to teach. Now I can understand when my parents come and say that my kids look so much different than the last time they saw them. I'll try to write on my blog before my parents come if I remember if not I'll try to write after there gone. So until I write again. Bye.